I have fallen Backwards..

I know it's been a while since I posted, okay maybe a few years. In full disclosure I have completely fallen backwards in my weight. It is honestly a failure to have control of my life, stress, and doing unsustainable dieting.
With stress, I been through a lot since I last posted but the biggest thing I been through since last post. The biggest events were: my Grandma In Law passing away, family Drama, 3 years of infertility, 1 miscarriage, losing my babygirl at 18 weeks gestation, being cyber bullied, moving, high risk pregnancy, breastfeeding difficulties, finally people judging my home. Know matter how much I do, it is not good enough.  I'm reduced to child by the way I'm treated, is like I moved out of my parents home, and yet my dad comes over , and treats me as if they judging my bedroom after I have cleaned it. I'm adult with 3 children, what gives them the right to treat me like that.
To make matters worse I have Dislocated My knee, and my father comes into my home and tells me mom didn't teach me treat my home like this. I'm disabled, I have 13 month old baby, my 8 year old and 6 year old at home for the summer, and I can't walk. I'm being judged, what the hell?!!!! I'm doing the best I can with this my injury, and people come into my home, and belittle me. How dare they??
People wonder why I am fat? Dysfunctional family, financial stress, taking care of children. I stress eat, food sticks to me like glue, I'm so busy overwhelmed I force my self just walk around the block for exercise. Now having to wait 6 weeks until I can fully walk again, my summer has disappeared from me already and it just beginning. I'm doing the best that I can.