I can't wait until I look in the mirror

I'm at the gym just flying , moving on the elliptical enjoying myself, and in knowing how much strength I have, and enjoying the music I'm listening to while I'm exercising.

I look over to left of me to see how I look in the mirror. To see how good I look, because I feel so good.
 Then I see a Fat woman on the elliptical machine to my disappointment, instead of me. I could have been upset, but I realized that I can't wait to look as good as I feel.

Because I do feel really good inside, I have a ton of energy, I'm accomplishing things I have never thought I would accomplish. I'm not being lazy anymore,and actually taking my daughter outside to play, instead of staying in my pajamas all day.

I'm heading somewhere, I'm breaking so many mental barriers that I didn't even realize were there in the first place. It has taken time to do so, a lot of time. I'm headed in the right direction and one day. I will look as good as I feel when I look in that mirror.

Peanut Butter Crispy Recipe

Give credit where credit is due, to www.biggestloser.com

Crispy Peanut Butter Squares
From the New Biggest Loser Dessert Cookbook!

By Chef Devin Alexander

Butter-flavored cooking spray
3 cups 100% whole grain crispy brown rice cereal (I used Erewhon brand)
¼ cup coconut sugar
¼ cup light agave nectar
¼ cup + 2 tablespoons unsweetened unsalted all-natural creamy peanut butter

Lightly coat an 8" x 8" baking dish with cooking spray. Place the cereal in a large mixing bowl. Set aside.
Place a medium nonstick saucepan over medium heat. Add the sugar and agave and slowly bring the mixture to a boil. Boil for 1 minute. Reduce the heat to low and add the peanut butter. Stir until the peanut butter is melted and the mixture is well combined.

Pour the peanut butter mixture into the bowl with the cereal. Using a rubber spatula, mix until the cereal is well incorporated. Transfer the mixture to the prepared baking dish and, using a piece of parchment or waxed paper, firmly press the cereal into the pan. Allow to cool completely. Cut into 16 squares. Serve immediately or store in an airtight container for up to 4 days.

Makes 16 servings

Per serving: 83 calories, 2 g protein, 13 g carbohydrates (7 g sugar), 3 g fat, trace saturated fat, 0 mg cholesterol, <1 g fiber, 41 mg sodium Adapted from The Biggest Loser Dessert Cookbook by Chef Devin Alexander (Rodale 2010)

My newest Challenge.....

 My newest challenge my brother help me set up.

The idea came to me but I had to confirm it with him, he is  honest with me, and he believes in me. I like that. Since I have started exercising at the gym during the winter I almost never go jogging. I do sometimes, but I spend more time in the gym the most I do is take walks with my daughter around the neighborhood

Anyhoo, I exercise on the elliptical for 45minutes 3 times a week.. I told my brother "hey, i'm using the elliptical for 45minutes at level 10 resistance. I want to get back to where I was when I was skinny, level 17. How do you think I should reach my goal?" Going up a level of resistance every week.


So guess what ladies and gentlemen. Even though I am fat still, but healthy on the inside I will be at level 17 in a month and a half. This week I'm level 11, next week level 12 so on and so on.


Hopefully my fat but will disappear soon. :)